"Oh Tannnenbaum, Oh tannenbaum, wie treu sind deine blatter"

 No, this post won't be in german, my dear English readers. But first of all, let me wish you a very Merry Christmas!

 

Yes... It's the end of the year. What a year. It was a pretty crappy year, yes, but we learned so much this year. Everybody learned a little bit about themselves this year. But god, this virus... It feels like it's never gonna end. I haven't updated this month because I was saving up for Christmas and also, I had my exams. I know, I know, I am a terrible blogger but eh, it's fun writing for special occasions. 

Either way, Christmas. I will be very honest, I have never actually celebrated Christmas. My family isn't the type to keep a Christmas tree and give out presents every year. I always knew Santa wasn't real anyway so, it just ruined anything my parents planned. (Not that they did plan anything)  My experience with the Christmas holidays always had a restlessness to it. Nevertheless, let me share some of my instances with Christmas. 

It was 5th grade, and our school had organized a Christmas special celebration. We had just started to study German, so our teachers thought it would be a wonderful idea to make 20-25 inharmonious pre-pubescent children sing a Christmas carol in German. (The title making sense now?) So, we sang the carol "Oh Tannenbaum". Now personally, I don't mind singing. I really like it. In fact, I go to singing classes, so you can say that my voice is pretty good. But what are the chances of my voice being heard clearly while some of the boys in my class are shouting their heads off trying to sing? Also, the teachers hadn't heard me sing so had given 2 of the mics to the boys. Just imagine the scene. 

5th grade was the year we started german, so we weren't sure about the pronunciations AT ALL. Like, seriously we sounded horrible with the pronunciations, the germans would have chased us with bats and guns for butchering their language. 

The world-famous 'Oh Tannenbaum' carol turned soon became infamous in my class. Some of the geniuses in my class came up with... interesting alternatives. (I'll let you guys think some of it) It was quite memorable in my class even today, though I might be the only one to remember the lyrics. No, I did not google. Seriously. I didn't.

Let me share another Christmas anecdote. (HA. foncy new word) Last year, my mother and some of her friends organized a secret Santa. (Though there want really anything secret in it for me) I had read all the messages sent in the come group so uh, I spoiled it for myself. Ehh, I am too old for secret Santa anyway. So, I had three gifts to ask, one of which will be granted to me. (I make it sound like it's a boon huh...)

The problem with a wish list is that you are brimming with ideas until you have to write a wish list. Then, your brain just goes, "welp, good luck with that"

Since my brain decided to betray me, I came up with 3 options- A well-known book, a parker pen (because I was just too broke to buy a pen), and a gift card. Hypothetical question; if you were in my place, what would you have chosen?

I'll be very honest, I really wanted that gift card. Yes, I was going to buy a book with that gift card, but at least I won't be judged on what I read.

Anyway, you know that really old saying 'You never get what you want.'? Yeah, this was one of those moments. I got the book. I haven't read it yet though, it's there, but yeah, I will read it soon. Let me just add that real quick to my new year resolution list.

So yeah, those two are my only experiences with Christmas. Thankfully, I have never gotten a stocking full of coal (although my parents at this point are considering giving me that) 

This post isn't just about Christmas though. 95% percent of it is. Now for the rest of the 5%- I want to talk about how this year went.

This year was a big load of bs. It sucked. We thought we would beat and banish our Rona virus this year but nope, that virus is like a zit; it just keeps popping up and won't. freaking. go. Like, seriously. I really missed school and really hope that god decides to banish online classes because honestly, it's school, just without the fun part. 

Next year it's supposed to be better. People are getting vaccinated. That's one great news this year at least. I am not going to tell you to look at the positive side of things because I personally believe that is a big load of BS. I am just telling you guys to just get by till the end. I know it must be hard for extroverts out there, but as an introvert, quarantine was easy enough for me. I just missed school a friggin lot. I have had a lot of downs this year but, I focused all that teenage angst on other stuff. Do what you want. Next year will be better I guess. Let's hope all those guesses aren't wrong.

I am truly sorry for going all mushy on you all in the last paragraph. I have limited the advice amount trust me. Either way, stick by. Next year, mother nature better not go all crazy-mama on us. 

Peace✌

Sam

I didn't mean to offend anyone. It's just my opinion. No offense to anybody out there.